I can't help but regret that I'm missing a party that I'd really rather be at. But, I promised Cory long before the party came up.
The other day, when I went to get my stuff, it went about as horribly as it could have (which explained my ending up in the ER with chest pains the day before). He wouldn't let me have my cat, and he pushed me out the door (I actually hurt my elbow) and wouldn't let me get the rest of my stuff. Then, he tried to get the cops involved - like that would have any sort of effect on me. Some off-duty asshole getting involved. If Chris wasn't such a fucking self-righteous redneck, none of this would have happened.
Thankfully, though, I had my friend Landon with me. I'm so glad he was with me, or I assume I could have gotten into some real trouble. Everyone - and I mean EVERYONE - advised me not to go alone. I'm really glad I didn't. Thank you, Landon. I'm sorry you had to witness that.
With Chris, though, it's not even about the cat. It's all about him being right...and abusive. So, I guess I should have seen that coming.
Anyway, it's over. I just hope sweet Domino survives. I hate that I left him in that environment. I'm sorry, Domino. I still love you, and I'm sorry for what I've done to you. You deserved so much better.
So, the incident is over, thank God. It's past time to move on. As usual, I made a terrible, horrible, no-good, very bad mistake, but there's nothing I can do about it now.
As for the aftermath...&=)
I went to hang out at Landon's place afterwards - just a touch of normalcy after the psychotic episode. Cliff came home from work, and we got to sit around and chill for a while. It was so nice. I got to meet Landon's new girlfriend, Kassie - she's nice. Then, they invited me to their party tonight, but I already had plans.
I got to meet someone, though. It was someone I never got to know. And, you know what? He's a fantastic person. I hope to learn a whole lot more about him in the future. The past few years of his life haven't been the best, to which I can completely relate. And, he's so sweet and tender, which is a definite change...a positive change! It's been so long since I've been able to be around someone who enjoys being gentle.
Nothing happened - it was just...pleasant. And, it was so comforting to be with someone with whom I felt safe. Now, THAT has been something I haven't felt in years. Safety.
Time is key, though. The slower, the better.
More time to enjoy.
Let's just hope this works out.
Even if it doesn't, I've been in the most sensational mood all week. It's nice to have a goofy grin plastered on your face, instead of a scowl.